I'm already shifting to my summer routene. Having been sick, its been sort of easy to forget school and the schedule I inhabit. So I'm thinking I have hours ahead of me when in really I have about 2, if I want a reasonable amount of sleep. Ahh, I'm ready to be out of school...3 weeks...3 weeks and I'm out of there forever. So I motivate myself to study for my econ test, because I will not have enough time next week to write the 5 page, 3 source, MLA citations extra credit paper when I haven't picked a topic. Grr, school. Summer will come soon enough and what a glorious summer this one will be. Gone away and learning about life beyond here....preparation for my life away from home in college for the next phase of my life.

I want that carefree attitute, that laid back schedule....they way everyone just seems less stressed because the weather is nicer and the days seem to go on forever. I want the freedom to stay up until 2 am for whatever reason and then sleep until 11. I want L to be home so we could make that trek to I-Day and then some. But most of all I want that structure of school gone and out of my life forever......college will prove to be a completely different structure.

I want to be more artistic this summer.....to paint, draw, express myself with some creative outlet. Its only fair...like a present to my soul.....my soul which has been pushed too far too many times to count this year. This academia has worn me down, still continues to wear me down even though the work isn't strenuous. Wouldn't it be interesting if you could somehow measure what I've learned through this stack of papers, tests, and worksheets? Probably not much.