It's happening, as much as I didn't think it was going to, as much as I don't want it to, here i am.....emotion surging through me, missing the people, the memories, the walls. So tomorrow's my last official day of real high school. Granted I have to come back Monday for senior campout, wednesday for finals, thursday for grad practice and checkout, and even next monday for memorial day concert.....but it's almost gone. Funny, me the one trying to get out for two years.

I almost broke tonight. B-low was announcing the music awards. John Philips Sousa goes to...JB, one of my best friends. I totally knew she'd get it. As I'm watching her walk up there to recieve it, tears begin coming to my eyes. She comes back to the timpanis and I hug her and almost start crying. I go up there to recieve the outstanding musician award, come back and she gives me a hug. Saying exactly what I said to her, "I knew it was going to be you. It could only be you." We have our photo op, multiple hugs....and the realization of me leaving JB and everyone else hits like a brick wall. goddamn, I'm actually going to miss high school.

then last night at baccalaurette....the entire class goes through this senior recognition ceremony. we've written down all of our accomplishments, our scholarships and future plans. one by one we stand center stage, our list being read, recieving our congratulations. I get up there and Mr. N asks me to "do the witch". I reply, " Do you want me to cackle?" So I cackle just like in Wizard....get my laughs, Mr. N also emphasized my outstanding witness performance at state...gapped at my scholarship award. Plus, I'm going the furthest away in my class for college (some little thing I wanted.)

Another chapter about to close in my life. It just took me awhile to realize I liked it.