somehow all the stress and anxiety of the school year seems to have evaporated within the past few days. all of my commitments or what have you are not stressful. i love this. i'm so carefree right now and i haven't had that feeling in a long time. it must be a thing of summer and the change was so signifigant this year that i noticed.

i had a wonderful birthday. i spent the day with A...i suppose to tell it plainly would make my day seem boring. ehh...the long car ride from his house to mine, windows rolled down, playing classic rock music, blue sky and sunshine, laughing, talking. hanging out at my house, going to a movie, walking in the moonlit night, laying in each other's arms until we almost feel asleep. whenever i'm with A it's like we just click. each feeds off the other and the time we spend together is so happy and relaxed. i feel like we've known each other for years instead of months because we're so comfortable. boyfriend and best friend, wow do i have it good.

perhaps i was lucky enough to have stumbled on my soulmate when i was 17? it seems like a feasable option. i'd love to keep him in my life for the next few years to see if that pans out. that's probably why i'm so happy right now, because i have such an awesome relationship with A. its so weird to think i'd be missing this if the events from prom weekend took another turn. i'm so glad i didn't give up this.

meanwhile i've been slightly materialistic searching for good deals in online shopping. i still need a piece of luggage and new pyjamas before i go to maslc next friday. oh god, i have a week and i need to work hard core on the music. eh...it won't be that bad.

current cd: modest mouse, the moon and antarctica
current trend: vintage t-shirts
current vice: sleeping in-everyday
current mood: free