Weird mood

I'm drained. I think this happens to me whenever I'm drained. Somewhere in between production class and the end of dinner I collapsed. Or rather my body collapsed while my emotions and intellect surged forward. Only it was my emotions that overpowered the rest of my being. Swirling and swallowing me in a surge of something I can't quite identify. I feel lost but I'm not sure why. This has happened before, I keep telling myself this so I don't attribute it to homesickness.

Maybe I'm thrown off by homesickness because my roommate moved out. I think there has to be some sort of curse on me....I've gone through 2 roommates and I haven't even been here a full month. It's just irony. They weren't sure where to put me and in doing so I end up getting the flaky roommates. But S was really nice, even though we didn't talk much. Now I'm afraid of getting a sketchy roommate like E again. I really don't want that to happen. Oddly enough I miss S. We had a good balance going. Sure we were never around at the same time but we respected each other.

I have to find motivation for homework. I have Ruthless! rehearsal in an hour and a half. I have to get myself out of this slump and work. Work....I got out of English 20 minutes early because I was finished with my test....first one to finish. How unlike high school....I didn't have anything to do so she let me leave. I did really shitty on a mini quiz last week about Plato but it turned out I was above the class average, which was higher than his other section.

Random thought of the day: Am I hanging out with AW too much? I'm starting to wonder if I have other friends.....yes, but circumstances. The only reason we were hanging out together today was because we're doing props for Ruthless! and spent the 3 hours in production working on that. And so we'll probably hang out after I'm done with rehearsal at 9:00. No...no I don't think so....besides if he didn't want me around he'd tell me. But it would do me good to hang out with other people.

Homework....homework....grr