feeling guilty....its been a week and even though I've been in school, i've accomplished nothing completely in my classes. So this weekend I have to edit a paper, write a paper completely from scratch, finish my novel (which i'm half-way thru) and complete the wksh. not to mention my world religions final presentation and find time to work on the bulletin board thing....and i want to finish my class before the end of the week, because i'll be damned if i'm going to work beyond 2nd quarter. ahhh, i hate school!

on the upside, all of my extracurriculars and starting/ getting close to performance. i'm very excited about speech because i have a kick ass piece. Laughing Wild by Christopher Durang....hilarious and crazy play. I'm slighly unsure about changing from Drama to Humorous, since i've only been in drama since 8th grade. But drama was getting so boring with the same ppl and the same pieces. At least with humorous i'll hear new things by different ppl....P (who's been in humorous for awhile and went to state last year) is slightly intimidated- of course he has nothing to worry about, but its nice to be slightly feared in that regard

another slightly bizarre (but good) circumstance: i've been talking more to D (different guy, a soph from school)....he always asks me about mock trial, because he's a first year attorney and is extremely motivated to do well. yesterday we were discussing the quality of the witnesses on second team. i feel bad for him to be on a different level than his team. D is good enough to be on varsity with the seniors and P (same guy from humorous)- but there just aren't enough slots. I mean, D's coming up with these legal angles for strategy that hasn't crossed anyone's mind. My team is taking them and playing with it....just emphasizes the fact that he should be with us. And yesterday is study hall we were talking about speech and a particularily horrible teacher/coach who shouldn't be a teacher....i've talked to D about the benefits of a Marxist society and corruption between marxism and communism

but he somewhat reminds me of my very good friend from slh, bsm (2nd year, 2002). probably because he's 2 years younger and our relationship is similar. sometimes i get the impression that D is interested in me, because we've been spending a lot of time together lately in one-act and mock trial, etc. i can't deny i've thought about him in the same way, but i don't know what i'd want out of it...and stupid me this is probably because he is 2 years younger and we go to the same hs. and i've always been against dating someone from hs....plus dating a soph would be weird....i should get over this and probably put the romantic attachment out of my head. Besides, i've been thinking i should have more guy friends, and D's a good friend.

but anyway...should start working....damn...damn.