my life is full of my superficial being....not sure why, but whenever life is good i tend to skim over everything and become what i often dislike, though i hope it would be a slightly more interesting person. it is only when i'm depressed that i examine life for what is beneath it.

and yes, life is good right now...days are long and full and tiring, but the content is happy and my fatigue subsides to my positive energy. school is easy and manageable. i'm painting everyday now, something i realized i need in order to function. those that i don't like are brushed aside because of their stupidity. i feel confident about auditions. we only have one more trial to win and the team can go to state (which we can win). i love my part in wizard. pep band is over forever.

i'm almost feeling manic depressive, which would probably be a stretch but it does run in the family. i'm a constant source of energy in a flurry of activites and tasks....yes, i'm tired but i must keep going.....it has been awhile since i've had a low point....so long that i can't recall one.

even so i'm somewhat annoyed with myself that i can't focus on things beneath the superficial. my entries are so dull.