too many things....

we had sectionals in accapella choir today....which basically means the sopranos go in one cramped room with a piano and the altos into another....the sopranos actually work, while the alto will maybe manage to go through it once before wasting the rest of the time gossiping.

today was just such a time....me, the piano player, has my appointed place in the section....but the gossiping doesn't envolve me....these are the preppy/ popular girls i've spent the majority of my school career either sucking up to them in elementary or not giving a shit in high school. so today they're discussing college and marriage. marriage is so odd to be discussing when we're juniors and seniors in high school. but there's these disillusioned girls that think their boyfriends are going to be their husbands. god, how stupid....and i loved how the moral of the entire conversation was marry rich and you'll be successful in life......have they no motivation? do they plan to ride on their successful "husbands" coat tails? knowing these girls, probably.....but i roll my eyes on the inside and curse myself for having to spend 4 months with such idiots.

actually today i was on this major "i hate people" kick.....by i hate people, i don't mean a specific person or persons just people in general.....J asked me about this and i replyed with this example," pick a girl with dyed blonde hair that i don't like- their stupid statements (aka the next thing that comes out of their mouth) are what make me not like people" school is wearing me down. today was the first full day i've had in school all week. what the hell am i going to do when i don't have college auditions/ mock trial/ speech/ musical? go insane.

my only saving grace was 1st block-acryllic painting....and why? solitude and freedom to create....the art sub and i have this unconcious understanding (she's actually the retired art teacher i had in jr high) she leaves me alone and lets me paint whatever, however i want. meanwhile, she nitpicks all the other ammatures. i'm left to create in peace ...80 blissful minutes of painting and emptying my soul

i'm so tired right now....i wonder how many days i could sleep through if i had the opportunity....sounds very tempting at the moment