I'm preparing to face another blow to my ego and my self confidence....i predict i'm going to get screwed over yet again by my fucking high school, so i'm trying to cope before it happens. ironic, i was so anxious so see that damn cast list....now i want to avoid it....i'll know today and still probably before the general public, but i don't want to know anymore.

i should have known this was going to happen.....did you really think you would get your glory in school? after all, high school is nothing but a popularity contest...did you think you could win? hell, no. surprise, surprise, got my hopes up for nothing......and of course the director at AAAA kept asking me to audition for Under Milkwood, he had a part for me....did i take him up on it? no....cuz i'm gonna be dorothy in wizard of oz...how wrong i was.

i hate this now....i have a feeling i'm going to end up in the chor....and now i don't want to be in it....i don't want to be promoting it....i want nothing to do with it, and i'm stuck with that fucking class doing nothing but wizard of oz until march 18....stupid me

this is complete bullshit....i was the best goddamn audition in the entire school.....i'll admit my singing wasn't as good as i wanted it, but it was still better than everyone else....i had the best stage presence....my cold read was kick ass awesome.....i've done more theatre in a year than practically everyone who tried out has done in their entire lifetime.....25 + productions, 6 principles.....choir, voice lessons.....complements from every adjudicator at MACT fest on my voice (the only one to hear that)

yet another reason to add to my list of why high school theatre (with the exception of this year's one-act) is a complete waste of my time....obviously they don't want a strong show if they can't cast their best asset in the lead role.....instead it goes to Poyzer's favorite.....a popularity contest....fuck