I feel reborn...or as if I'm about to be reborn, standing perched on the the brink of flight, waiting in anticipation....but yet exstatic to be there....i take one last look at my surroundings, enjoying the good memories and happy feelings past and present....windows and doors are opening to a world of possibilities....i stand in transitiion between the old world and the new, living solely in the present with my mind slightly turned toward the future. something happens to make my mind dwell on the past, world to be left behind....a person, a word, a feeling....and i do have a moment of regret, of wishing a certain someone would come into my life when i could keep him there for a longer duration. instead, i throw that thought aside and cherish his presence in my life at this very moment. i want to fly....and i am...but yet i want to soar and take him with me, literally and figuratively...spring just makes me feel that way, driving forever with music blasting into the sunshine and the fresh gives me the urge to do something spontaneous. and i wish A was with me and my time uninhibited so i could do as i pleased....but he's and hour away and i have rehearsal and lines to memorize....

things that made me happy today (in no particular order)

1. acceptance letter from rockford, number 2 choice (i have a place to go next year!)
2. throwing away a plan and painting on a whim
3. having pizza for breakfast
4. thoughts of A floating aimlessly in my head, and his sweet e-mail
5. e-mail from S