my extremely long week draws to a close (haha, its only thursday...i love easter). my parents have forbid me leaving the house again due to my extreme fatigue and basically ill looking physical appearance. i'm somewhat gratetful because i know i have stretched myself too thin ( as always, this seems to be something i can't shake), even though i did want to see A tonight and meet more of his friends. but i know A will understand and be the first one to tell me to take care of myself.

today: solo/ensemble....basically i got up at an ungodly hour to sit on a bus and then proceed to run around the high school in breckenridge and perform an average of every 30 minutes for 6 hours. 9 events- 6 for piano/ accompianing, choralairres, vocal solo, and snare duet.....major superior on my vocal solo and snare duet (the only things i consider myself actually performing.) but i really enjoyed my vocal solo judge....i sang the less common version of ave maria (extremely challenging piece in latin) and i spent quite a bit of time beforehand memorizing the words. i sit in the room and hear 2 mediocre solos and think to myself i will completely blow these guys out of the water...egotistical me. i sing, rather well in my opinion....musicality and all that, previously the judge had been asking the performers what their piece means and asking them to take more liberties with the phrasing....none of that for me. but she's amazed by my voice and spends most of the time trying to correct my tone because it is too "dark", something i knew already....and she proceeds to ask me all of these questions...voice teacher, college plans...she approves, knows my voice teacher and hears the reflections of his teaching in my voice. complimented me on singing the challenging piece and told me she was amazed such a big voice could come out of such a little person. oh, and she told me my intro (before my song started) was very professional and poised....

my snare duet was also quite humorous; i intentionally wanted something easy to work up because i knew my life would be hectic....and it was executed well. the judge basically said good dynamics, rhythm, sticking, etc...but the piece needs to be more challenging for you...b-low laughed, he'd been telling us that for awhile.

B asked me for a ride home after school today. i oblidged, seeing as he lives right in barrett...but it was strange because i had previously had my eye on him the entire year, except for my current duration of course. strange timing, and he kept asking me questions about my plays and college i was telling him about solo ensemble....hmm....in the back of my head i kept thinking of asking his opinion toward LK, since they seem somewhat serious...eh, but i was perplexed as to why he asked me of all people for a ride....i've maybe spoken to him 10 times at short intervals for the entire year since we're in the same study hall and he did run lines with me when i was in Bus Stop last fall. the whole thing was confusing....and given as i tend to overanalyze things, no more.

i've noticed a strange coincidence in my postings....these entries seem to focus on the current object of my affection and those who temporarily caught my gaze....obviously A has been predominate in subject matter for the past 2 months....but in the course of my blog i've focused on about 5 boys....perhaps i'm single-minded?....no matter....i'm happy where i am....and i was watching a movie with the underlying theme consisting of soulmates, which made me pine for A....and the entire time i'm home while i was supposed to be in morris i'm pining for him. oh well...