my mind is currently filled with thoughts of prom and A. i just bought shoes, and i contacted someone to fix my hair, the flowers will be taken care of soon enough. i'm really looking forward to it. prom is such a girly event and A completely understands. I'm really happy to be going with him.

I've been having weird moments of nostalgia today. We offically recieved our caps and gowns. A symbol of the year getting closer and closer to ending. The senior countdown is on the wall, less than 45 days or something. Everytime I go to an extracurricular I keep thinking this is the last time I'll ever...no more speech, mock trial, one-act, musical...soon no more solo ensemble, band and choir concerts....then no more high school. I'm happy to be leaving. But while I'm in the transistion of preparing to leave, I happily look around and enjoy everything the past few years have been. I drink in the current good times with my friends and wistfully remember when we were gawky jr high girls. we'll soon be going our separate ways and most likely will hardly speak to each other too much beyond the summer. its as if its an unspoken agreement that certain ones in our group will go away, never to be heard from again. i'm probably the most likely one to never come back. my ambitions will carry me that way, i guess. but there are times given i had different dreams that i'd be content to stay here...come back after college.

meanwhile, I'm content to stay where I am...experiencing things one last time and living out new memories that may soon come to an end. i'm sometimes wishing I had met A when i was more convient for us to be together for a longer duration, but then i consider myself lucky that we've come together at all. what would have happened if he and LK were still together? nothing as far as the two of us would be concerned. but now there is the light at the end of the tunnel...a light so close that it illuminates the darkness towards the end of my path....shining so my path doesn't look as unhappy as it once did. the light soothes me, making me want to linger at the end of my journey....and linger i shall before i have to cross the threshold into a new life that will propel me into the next stage.