sitting at the computer in my paint-splattered overalls, i contemplate the extremely long, but short, week stretched ahead of me....this time next week i'll never have to worry about Wizard of Oz ever again....what a great feeling of relief. but for the moment i'm quite happy and content to be involved with it....i brought Tibia's costume to the run thru tonight and finished the main body and then ran out of paint. i know my part and it keeps getting better...hehe, i scared the music director tonight, yes...and i'm looking forward to being uglified starting tomorrow....i get green makeup, fake nails, a unibrow, blackened teeth....warts, hopefully a prostetic nose, extremely teased hair that i have to wear in cornrows for the rest of the week with green coloring.

but i had an interesting conversation with AN tonight during practice....she asked me how i felt about A flirting with LK...and i told her it did bother me with the boob thing....but that A is a very affectionate person by nature, and what nerve do i have to interfere with it?....besides, both he and LK still like each other in a way, and it would be dumb to play the jealous gf and forbide them to interact.....and also, how i'm dealing with this is a reflection of myself.....if i was unsure of myself i'd be taking this a lot worse....but i know how A feels about me, and i trust that he won't do anything to hurt me. and he is really good about trying to make me feel like i'm not being short-sighted....paying more attention to me when he's around that group, saying i love you at intervals (and always meaning it) i'm ok with it

i had a good weekend with him....he came over yesterday and helped me start painting tibia's costume....we ate dinner with the parents and saw Under Milk Wood at AAAA....A spent the night and went to church with mom and I because I had to play for her choir. i really liked the comfort of the entire outing....basically, because that's how most of my weekends end up and involving A with it is like fitting him in my life and a confirmation of how well we fit together. he seemed to enjoy myself, whether or not that meant he enjoyed what we did or if he was just content to spend time with me. but i was really happy when i was with him...and spent a bit of time pining over him when i didn't have to focus on other misc wizard stuff.

random thought for today: it occurs to me that i have him wrapped around my finger in some extent. it just reminded me of the position i had with M 2 years ago. but i didn't abuse it then and i don't intend to abuse it now.... and i'm wrapped around his finger as well......(*smiles slightly at her bizarre ring metaphor*, ring equating commitment- hmm)