stuff...stuff...odd...good...happy...weird...no more fingernails, score!

wizard closed today...it felt like a long run because all of us we're so tired from multiple activities. but it was a good show and i had an awesome part. but i ended up going to the cast party with LK and spent the rest of the day with her. we hung out the entire time at the cast party, eating vending machine junk food and doing a really bad job of announcing the volleyball game. we rode around in her ghetto van around alex and randomly went place; CS's house, a park, Wal-mart...i just loved the randomness of it. i'm glad LK have become close like we were during one-act. i want to keep that feeling. once again, we spent some time discussing A...it really helps me to talk to her about the relationship because she's gone through similar things. she still thinks he's a bad bf for me...and if he is i'm going to find that out for myself. funny thing, she said we should get drunk together...and we're going to draw with chalk on random sidewalks...

currently patching things up with A...this is good for us...working through issues, etc.....i really want to see him so my last memory of being with him isn't so negative....but i have plenty of other good memories to look back on....i feel like doing random dirty stuff- thinking that on the way home from alex...sorry, random thought....but i'll hopefully see him tomorrow...i'm very happy with A....i feel like there's so much i don't know about A, and maybe as time goes on i'll be able to read him better and respond better. i want the opportunity to do that...i want to put in the time and cultivate the relationship...i'm not thinking about next year....i know i will leave, most likely go to college in Illinois...but i still have time