left behind

why is this upsetting me? it shouldn't. AW is going home in a few minutes. he hinted about taking me with him, only to not have me go. for some reason i feel really let down. i guess its that i want to get out, get away, and preferably get away with him. or it's that status when meeting the guy you're "dating"'s family. i don't know. nevertheless i feel as if i have days ahead of me with nothing to do....which is a lie, i have plenty to do. but homework and being alone in my room, unless i sought out people is not a great prospect. i'm clinging to this one last straw that he'll reconsider as he's getting laundry and take me with him. but....its probably not going to happen. instead, i'll phone home or sleep because my morning was robbed from me. i'll do my homework and actually be on top of things. but he's not going to call, i know that. time to change into lounging clothes and put away my things.