current mood: content
current focus: college auditions/ prospect of seeing A

I feel elated, as if any problem I could have had was melted away by either A's e-mail or dance class. I had a meeting with K about my audition prep. We went through the Durang monologue for this week and next week's audition about 6 times. After the sixth time when she told me it still wasn't along the lines of what we were working towards, I replied I felt burnt out and needed an audience. She agreed and began to tell me everything I was doing well- pacing, delivery, believeablity, etc. Basically needing an audience to improve means I'm ready. And frankly, the thing that will make me stand out is my preparation. So my acting portion is taken care of.

Yet, I'm still feeling slighted about the singing, which is terrible since it should be my stronger ability. Unfortunately I've realized being in accapella choir (even though it is the best choir in the school) has given me bad habits I've never possessed. Of course I've known this for a long time, but it slaps me in the face last week at my voice lesson when C is correcting my too board vowels. God. So tomorrow when I have spare time during study hall and last block I'm bringing my music books and singing to try to find the voice I possessed last year during Fantastiks. I hope it works.

I'm very happy about seeing A. But also my focus is shifting to my auditions, as it should be. I will enjoy myself tomorrow at speech, but before and after I will be preparing for the audition. I also have to do a group dance audition. And I did have a good night at dance class. I've noticed turning out is more second nature to me and I was correcting form without too much trouble. Plus my memory was really sharp as well. So I was trying to file away all of the things we did during warm up so I can function at the group audition.

Oh, another good thing about the day. I finished my 4 paintings. I feel really good about them, the only downside is I might not have used all of the techniques...oops. But Mrs. G loves me and I was innovative, so maybe that will play to my advantage. And our next project is a painting of our choice for the remainder of the quarter. So many options....the possibilities are endless. Of course I have to be careful now that Mrs. B is back (not a big fan of avant garde). I wanted to paint my soul or something, but maybe I'll just take a picture and paint it in an extremely contemporary light. Not sure what I want to do yet....

more later