The end of my good day and the beginning of the weekends I've been looking forward to (and worrying about) for months.
Saw A today for speech. Once again we didn't end up in the same round. So we hang out in between rounds and before awards. And because my senior priviledge is to hand out awards I had to be careful of not repeating last weeks episode. Ironically enough I got 4th again- the 3rd time this season, I'm stuck in a rut or something.

I sang most of the afternoon. I spent the first half of last block idly playing piano and singing. Then I blew away the jr high choir with Much More. And I also sang for A like I promised. He absolutely loved it, and that's not just because he loves me. But I feel a lot better about the vocals because I got myself back to that peak I had last year during The Fantasticks.

Speaking of that, I finally decided on a gift for A since I won't be able to see him for 3 weeks. I lent him my Fantasticks tape, gave him a necklace and a card with reasons why I care about him (possibily even love him- ahh, commitment). Oh, and I was going to have Mom meet him today, but we weren't on the same wavelength at all, so it didn't happen. I feel guilty about that, but its no big deal. Now I want it to be official with him meeting the parents at my house or something. Hehe, and the speech meet thing was a gradual way of telling people we're together. For some reason I'd been hesitant about it but now its good to tell them. I came to awards and the seniors were asking me about it and V was sounding very excited like it was a good thing, unlike LK and LZ who don't think its good for me.

So I've been packing. I'm going to put a lot of my issues out of my mind and think only about college auditions and the good things surrounding A. There are some bad and some things that make me feel guilty. But I should adopt A's attitude towards the seemingly unimportant stresses and forget about it. Its not like any of those things are a big deal. I need to prepare and focus on my auditions. I have my supplies for warm ups and clothing for the acting/ singing and dance audition. I have cds and lozenges for vocal warm ups, etc etc.

Tomorrow we leave for Wisconsin....the beginning of the major decision points of my life.