Ok- end of the first college audition. Overall, not bad considering. I nailed my songs. Did pretty good with the monologue. Presented my self confidently, but without the air of a prima donna. My dance audition was not complementary, but mainly because I was in a room full of dancers. I am a singer/actress. Hopefully those girls couldn't sing or act. At least my dancing showed potential in my opinion. Nevertheless, I'm still filled with worry just because of the odds and the importance of these auditions. But I'm satisfied and I tried my best. If I get in, it is because of my voice- which was better then most of the samples I heard on the archives playing in the lobby. She can sing very well, she can act well and her dancing has potential- she has stage presence. Plus the one prof remembered me from my visit back in october because our small home towns are about 30 minutes apart and because he and my dad went to the same college. At least I have name recognition.

So I'm putting that out of my head. I did well, no use stressing over odds and competition. On to next week, in Illinois...where I have another audition. This school's reputation isn't as high as Stevens Point, but I'll still have to work as hard. The benefit of Boston is that I don't have to humiliate myself with dancing until fall placement, after I'm accepted. And I get my damned braced off on Thursday, so hopefully that will help with image and such.

I'm missing A a lot....I got a sweet e-mail from him. God, I probably am falling for him even though I'm scared of love. This is good though, I should throw away my insecurities and actually live life for me instead of my activities. But I'm trying to see him Wednesday or else I won't be able to until I get back from Boston and state mock trial (even though that isn't for sure yet).

I hope I'm not overestimating things, but I have this feeling I'm going to end up at atleast one of these 3 schools. I hope that's correct. Until then sleep, since its been a long time coming and dream about A...tomorrow I go home and prepare for the next audition.