Time to throughly devote myself to a decent posting, not because I feel I have to but because I need to.

Leaving for the airport in about a half an hour or so....

Last night A ended up calling me and we talked until his phone card ran out around midnight. We didn't really talk about anything in particular. In fact, it was all meaningless in the grander scheme of things. I guess intelligent thought was beyond either one of us last night. But to hear his voice was all the comfort I needed. I've debated about giving him my blog link. I think I'm going to now....but I wonder if that will make my posts more guarded, and that's the last thing I need. Maybe I'd feel the need to protect him and myself by holding some things back. Obviously my blog has focused on A ever since we hooked up....but on the other hand, A would want to know about everything in my life- including the negatives about him. And I'm ok with him knowing everything....so I'll give it to him.

But my mind is currently filled with thoughts preparing for travel. It is hard to analyze/ ponder whilst trying to get my life in order so I can leave. Plenty of time for mindless thinking in the airport....