Insomniac?
Blogging is proving to be very difficult seeing as I don’t have the correct passwords to log into my internet connection. Hooray for campus e-mail. But I have a terrible case of insomnia, as this would be the second night in a row when I’m awake at this ungodly hour (why? Why?). So instead of reading in the hotel bathroom, I’m at my dorm trying (and failing after coming so close) to set up my wireless internet connection.
Ah, college. Well, basically I’m adjusting fine except for one small problem: my roommate. Grrr...I just really dislike her for various reasons. 1. She’s a druggie and a pothead (one in the same but I’m specifying). My stuff already smells like pot. This is illegal to have on campus but you have to catch them in the act or something. Plus I’m not too well oriented to be assertive and demand a new roommate right off the bat. 2. She’s an interesting combination of white trailer trash. Very sleazy first impression. I have the joy of meeting her often drunk boyfriend. Unfortuately she’s close to home, so how often will I feel the need to leave because they’re fucking in the next bed? 3. Oh and she has a friend on campus too...they’ve ditched orientation activities to smoke/ whatever. Yeah, really wanting to move out of here and get a new roommate and its only the first night. Plus her goddamn blue lava lamp is making me angry and perhaps keeping me up.
Oh and the good part about this. There is a room across the hall from me with 2 really nice and level-headed musical theatre majors. I don’t know the third girl in the mix, but the 4th hasn’t shown up yet. I’m hoping if she doesn’t I’ll be able to move in with them. Or perhaps swap roommates with E’s friend and let them live together.
Actually if I had ended up with a perfectly good roommate instead of this loser I’m stuck with, I’d be perfectly happy. I’ve met a lot of cool people ranging from a geeky yet level-headed girl. She will most likely be my ride at the moment. Various freshmen music theatre majors. And my favorite of the night, an upperclassmen mt major named AS. I felt somewhat priviledged to be sitting at the upperclassmen table. But we talked theatre for awhile and about theatre clique culture. He invited me to join all of these cool theatre programs– drama club (three penny?) and about the choir with scholarship opportunites. Not to mention the up coming musical auditions next week. I will be happy when the rest of the theatre department gets here. It sounds like I’d be easily inducted into that social group. Well, AS remembered meeting me at my auditions last winter.
Things I have to take care of: for my own piece of mind and maybe this will help me sleep.
1. student ID
2. Work study
3. Damned internet passwords
4. Health forms
5. Textbooks
6. Something roommate related
You know, I’m wondering if I should make the best of this roommate situation….grin and bear it and all that shit. But this is the first night and I already want to move out. I have tried getting to know her and being open-minded but then she smoked pot in our room. She likes me, which works to my advantage because I think she hates our preppy quad-mates in the next room. Yeah...grr...everything about this is just grr….why couldn’t I have a normal, nice roommate. Not one with all this emotional baggage and health problems she most likely conjures up in her mind. Why couldn’t I be in the room with E and A? But at the rate she’s going, she’ll be home by Thanksgiving/ Christmas. She ditches every opportunity to meet new people. Has anxiety attacks in crowds, doesn’t eat very nutritiously, is a partier...went home last year after going to school for a week and had to go to Rockford because its closer to home.
But my parents are coming tomorrow and I’ll ask them what they think. They don’t like her either. It was me who was trying to be open minded when we were discussing her. They don’t like her at all. So its 4 o clock in the morning and I don’t think I’m any closer to falling asleep. Maybe I’ll read.
*posted August 23
